Oh how life can be a bitch!

Well as of about a month ago I am no longer pregnant. After going for an early scan due to bleeding it was discovered that my baby had stopped growing a long time before.  I was left for nature to take it course but due to still breastfeeding my gorgeous girlie my body was still acting as though it was pregnant (cravings, dislikes and even the need to dig out my old maternity clothes!)  so I stopped breastfeeding and 2 weeks later things started to take their course.
Unfortunately I had become a bit anaemic and when the miscarriage started my body couldn't cope and I passed out a lot and lost a lot of blood also and was rushed into hospital. I received a blood transfusion and after lots of care from some pretty fab people I was home a few days later.  It was strange and heartbreaking to go through it and I can't help but blame myself for what happened now. But, I have Lydia and Mark and hopefully soon I can announce that I going to be a Mommy again soon.

We've recently been to Barmouth (I'll try and post photos when I sort them out) we had a fab time together and it's what we really needed to be honest after this year so far.  The weather wasn't the greatest but it was better than what most people were getting that week. Lydia and Roxy both love the beach and it was great to play and see them chilled like me and Mark. We didn't do much other than walk along the beach, go to the playground, but we did venture to the swimming pool (45 mins away) as it was the nearest one with a pool for children. We went to one last year with Lydia and she was so frozen it wasn't worth risking taking her there again. She absolutely loves swimming and loves doing the 'holiday swim'. Here is what the holiday swim is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OcOHjVvOZtc (this isn't me by the way).  When she was born Mark asked me what giving birth felt like, the only way I could describe it was to say it was like I was a fish and I was giving birth to a fish. From that moment she was always our little fish and she has absolutely turned out that way.

We're going back at the beginning of next month for a week, they are celebrating the Queens 60th Jubilee and hopefully the weather will be nice so we can have some proper fun there!  I'm there quite a lot actually this year.  I'll be going back end of July for 6 days and coming back to go to Cornwall with the inlaws the following day for a week. That won't be such a relaxing holiday. They'll be my little family (3+1dog) and OH's son, OH's parents, his brother and youngest sister, his oldest sister, her hubbie and their 3 children! Mad house comes to mind but we normally only get together once a year for a 2 night break (like we did in Jan) so will be nice to see them for longer. His sister lives in Wells and the only time we get together properly is for a special occasion outside our now annual weekend.
Me and Mark are also hoping (well probably more me) to get away later in the year before Lydia turns 2 and we have to pay stupid money to go aboard with her. I'm swaying more to Florida again as our visa is still in date and I feel there will be more for Lydia to do than your normal holiday destination. But it's pretty expensive for a getaway holiday. The other option was to go back to Mexico, we always said we'd go back (7 years ago this year) as it was our first holiday destination together and we loved that week we spent there.  It's where we both realised that we loved each other...aaarr!  But as I said, I think 2 weeks on just a beach for Lydia will be pretty boring....but we'll see some hotels have little water slides etc so maybe there'll be something like that we can choose.

Oh and on the weight loss, I did loose some more but I haven't weighed myself for a while.  I have noticed in many of my clothes though that I am slimmer and trousers are starting to fall down so a belt is needed on all my bottoms now! Woohoo! I hope I can get back to pre-Lydia pregnancy weight before I have my next one other wise they'll be whale watching down at Barmouth next year!

Will try to update more! Bye!